TURIA Pitt shared an emotional blog post about her son Hakavai and her feelings on being a mum to mark Mother’s Day.
The inspirational Australian encapsulated the experience of parents everywhere as she attempted to describe the intensity of “this new world I’m living in.”
Turia, who suffered burns to 65 per cent of her body during a 2011 ultra-marathon in Western Australia, said motherhood was different all the time.
“When I’m breastfeeding, it’s primal,” wrote the 30-year-old. “It’s a weird kind of nice to be needed so…. desperately. I swear I can feel myself literally falling towards him with love (thank you oxytocin!).
“When he screams at 3 am, I’m irritable.
“When he does something for the first time, I feel like I’m gonna burst with pride (even though the rational part of me knows that most of the 350,000 kids born each day reach these same milestones).”
Warning that she might “cause nausea and dizziness” with her “flowery” description of motherhood, Turia revealed that she found motherhood “intoxicating, and scary and incredible”.
She said there was a “raw, visceral” element to the love she had for her five-month-old child with partner Michael Hoskin. “It’s a kind of love I simply couldn’t have imagined before I had him,” she added.
The first-time mum confessed that she panics when her son is sick, worries constantly about whether he’s too hot or cold or hungry, and checks to see if he is still breathing at night.
But she added: “When he smiles, I feel like I have a purpose.”
She described her adoration for his “masses of black hair” and “pterodactyl squawks”, adding that he had her nose and her partner’s ears.
Turia described motherhood as “a privilege”, wishing a Happy Mother’s Day to mums who were witty, strong, frustrated “and everything in between.”
In the lead-up to the birth, Turia told news.com.au she was “really excited” about becoming a mother.
“I’m not nervous, I’m ready for it,” she said. “I’m really excited about giving birth. I’ve had a lot of pain through my experiences, and it’s pain which doesn’t have a meaning for it.
“But the day of the birth, yes it will be hard and intense but at the end of the day I’ll get a baby from the pain — and how cool is that?”
Turia has always been open in chronicling every step of her long and arduous journey to recovery. Earlier this month, she shared on Instagram that she had had more surgery on her nose.
In 2015, she underwent an operation to completely rebuild her nose, which put her into cardiac arrest, and she admitted in the new post that each surgery required “trusting in the process” and taking time out from work and the active lifestyle she loves.
“I choose to keep having surgeries like this because I believe life is all about continual improvement,” she captioned the latest photo of herself with Hakavai after surgery.
“I can breathe through my nostrils for the first time in 5 years and I’m loving hanging with the best antidote in the world.”